After tomorrow, is my last day of working parttime, because I will fly very soon, next next week. I have to stop working, to rest. Else I never rest during this long holiday. I will very suffer if I work nonstop, or no rest time. My mood will become very irritate.
After tomorrow didnt work at times square but work in a temple too, hehe.. Because wesak day is coming soon, next tuesday, so I become a volunteer to help all those work 2 month before. So I can onli rest more after next tuesday.
After that I still have to go to college to settle down my ptptn delay process, and change the celcom broadband pay methods to they send me the monthly letter, because everytime I went to post office, they also said they did not accept online printed bills. But I said every month I also pay here, they only let me pay at there. So when I am not here in Malaysia, all these things my sister have to settle, so I decide to change the bill payment method, so that easier for her to pay, since her debate skill is not that good.
After that, is time to prepare luggage, order those things that I want to bring to UK. Haha.. Thats all la, ^^
Sometimes you will afraid, when you have nothing, but once you think about it, the things will comes to find you. Means that, what you want, will comes to you.
Its really very weird, last time when I want to know something about hypnosis, I google find it, then one uncle in wet market that quite familiar with me introduce me his nephew that also study psychology in UKM, and then I experienced the process too. It make me more understand about hypnosis.
My wishes is almost becomes reality now, just left few things that cannot be seen. I just believe it will happens.
Strongly agree with some sentence saying that if you are very hardworking on working for yourself, you are just getting what you should get in this life. However, when you keep doing some good deed and donate money or material that you have to others that in need, you can get whatever you need or want, people will give you.^^ You will get it automatically.
So please be more hardworking, volenteer to help people. Love anything that have life. You can and you will have better life in your future. ^^
They said: If you are doomed to have big amount of money, you can success no matter what you do. Such as success in business or win toto or any investor. But if the people are doomed to be poor, then even they are able to steal or get many money from donator, their money will be finished in the end.
Will leave home for one year this time.. Wish can move house as soon as possible, so that they wont throw my things. Now we are planning to renovate my house. Never renovate before. I can also help them to carry something, release their burden too before I fly to UK.^^
I am very busy these days, keep prepare and settle many things before I fly to UK. I still need to buy webcam for them because I want to chat with them when I stay at UK. I also need to download adobe into my laptop, because after I get my laptop fixed, they format my laptop to window 7, so lose all those software, have to install and download again. Haiz..
Have to gather with family and friends more, haha.. Because I cant see them for quite a long time. Normally I just stay at home, doesnt want to go anywhere because I want to save money, not much money to spend, feel bad to let people pay also. So rather reject those appoinment. But since I will leave very soon, bankrupt also never mind already, haha..
They said I sure very happy because I can own a room of my own, and bathroom of my own in my UK hostel. No need to live in narrow room again. Actually narrow also never mind la, as long as happy, have people chat with me, play with me, let me scold, hahaha..
I always laugh or smile, father said it is very immature. I always laugh or smile even I not happy. It is because wanted to hide my feeling or avoid embarrassment. But it is not useful because others will thought you are interested in that, or not care of that issue very much.
But I really cannot do that again next time, when they talk about those things that is very immoral, or hurting others. Their personality is still the same, cannot be change. Of course they can get pleasure from their immoral behaviour, just care for their own feeling, but I just know that everything that they do is under the eyes of the god. They will get punished or have to carry the responsibility of what they have done.
When they did those or thinking to do those immoral thing, they never think about others, and still think that they are very high class or proud of their behaviour. I started felt that our distance is further and further apart. They wont be shame of talking about those thing also, and never consider that others may not agree with their thought. They thought as long as they have money, then they can do every immoral things already.
Personality is actually couldnt be changed, unless they get punished from their behaviour. They can change their behaviour to become better for awhile, but not for whole life.
No wonder someone famous said: "We can change everything surrounding you, but we cannot change your personality. Your personality decide what is your future luck".
Conclusion for those people who hurt and take advantage from others: you can do whatever you like, just like what you said: I dont think so much, no need to think, just take it easy. But you know these behaviour hurt people. Then one day, do not blame others for ignore you, or why you lost all your belonging, because you have never care and appreciate it. Change your behavior to save your future before it become too late. ^^
Before this, I always wait for my future. Now, I can see my future already. I am really very happy.
Because all these is just very near to me already right now.
I am happy because many things become alright when I really need it. I thought I cannot get it, but thanks god for helping me to reach my dreams in the very important moment, although I have worry and sad for cannot meet that, dissapointed, and even frustrated. Many people that I trust betrayed me, and I started know who is the one who will always support me. I am very naive, I thought people will treat you good when you treat them good, but it is wrong. Now I realise that we cannot expect any others.
Perhaps, I am a very lucky girl, the road very smooth. Everytime I worry, till the end also will turn it become smooth. Thanks everyone who have helped me.^^
Luck is really very important!
I am very touch, really very touch, and I felt that the door is always open for me when all others door is close. It seems like wanted me to understand more about the reality, dark side of human, and bad intention of others. Then only save me from the hell. I learned a lot from all these experience. I dont hope to experience all these bitter experience again.
This is a cantonese song which I like very much!^^
The first cantonese I heard from Fish Leong~~
But I saw this seastar with other friend in a trip, factory trip. She dare to take and touch the sea star but I not dare. Haha. I just dare to see. Can see I already feel very happy, haha..^^
